2005-03-28 7:47 a.m.
"Now the melancholy god protect thee, and the tailor make
thy doublet of changeable taffeta, for thy mind is a very opal.
I would have men of such contancy put to sea, that their
business might be everything, and their intent everywhere, for
that's it that always makes a good voyage of nothing."
- Twelfth Night, II. iv.
2005-03-06 7:25 p.m.
My lunch date with my best friend is cancelled for tomorrow. His wife has pnuemonia. Stupid wife with her stupid pneumonia. We're supposed to get another major freakin' snowstorm again tomorrow anyway although that wouldn't've stopped him. AND tomorrow is his birthday and now he gets to spend it in the waiting room at the doctor's office. To quote him, "That couldn't suck enough."
Well balls.
Hmpfh. The only comfort (and it is cold) is that he won't see me so fat and nasty looking. I was going to get back on my program on MY birthday (Wednesday) but I thought I'd start tomorrow in honor of him. I'm going to be 34 and I hafta say, it ain't sittin' well with me. I feel like I'm suspended over this giant yawning chasm that is my thirties. I can't go back because those years are all burned up with nothing to show for them, and going forward scares the piss out of me as I have only shaky faith that life will improve. If it continues on in this vein for another, oh, say, 30 or 40 years, I may have to OPEN a vein.
Good news: it's Sunday night. Tomorrow is monday and the dreaded weekend hell is over. Also, I have rented the first season of "The L Word" so I get to see what all the hoopla about. (And check out my secret crush).
TTFN
2005-03-06 9:19 a.m.
Keep thinking about one of my male relatives (by marriage, nothing permanent) who called me a "harsh woman" the other day. I guess that wouldn't fry my ass so bad if it wasn't coming from such a whiny little pussy bitch.
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Saw "Garden State" last night. Liked it. LOVED the soundtrack. Will attempt to track it down soon....
2005-03-05 1:24 a.m.
I think I am officially an insomniac. Seems I can't sleep more than a few hours at a time, regardless of how much (or how little) caffeine or alcohol I have had. Two days back from tremblant and I'm freakin' awake, both nights. Not that I slept for hours there but I did manage almost 9 hours the last night and that was on top of copious amounts of wine and coffee.
I don't understand it.
I kind of like being an insomniac though. At least until tomorrow when I have to slog through.
2005-01-03 2:25 p.m.
Ok so I'm back. How could I stay away? My life has taken on a new rhythm in the past 7 months and now that I'm settled in I feel I can turn my attention back to this. Also I can't seem to get myself motivated to write on paper anymore. My time is so limited (as is my attention span) and journalling on the computer just seems more appropriate to this annotated state of mind. It probably won't be very interesting though. My participation in the world has shrunk to the point where i almost have nothing to say. the challenge will be finding time to type on the now rare occassions when i've something to say.
2004-08-15 7:56 p.m.
That's all folks. I'm closed for business. Thank you for playing though.
